A Non-Chipper Post

So, Mariah tells me that I post too many shiny, happy blogs, so here’s one that’s not so shiny and happy.



How I’ve felt since I went off liquids.

Seriously. When is this shit going to stop? I can’t even raise my head off the pillow in the morning without feeling like I’m going to hurl. I’m eating Zofran like candy. (Not really, but I am taking them 3 times a day.) Until about 6 or 7 everyday, I feel like I can’t keep anything down. And when I do eat, most of the time it feels like it’s making the express trip back up. Most times it doesn’t, but occasionally, I get to see dinner a second time.

On top of everything, I got some sort of viral stomach bug that hit me Thursday night, so I spent Thursday night and Friday down for the count. And by down for the count, I mean REALLY sick. At least it seems to have passed. I am still feeling weak, but I felt weak before the flu hit.

I know this is all just temporary, and will pass in time. But for right now, this is really no fun at all.

Rant over. Continue on with your day.


Linda ❤


Back to Work We Go..

I’m going to make this brief, because I’m super tired and need to get to bed.

Today was my first day back to work after surgery. I’m 11 days post op, and feeling pretty darn good. My doc told me last week that he wanted me to return to work at half days, but I ended up working about five and a half hours before the nausea of smelling everybody’s lunch became too overwhelming, and I went home. Everyone was incredibly sweet to me, and very congratulatory. They all said I looked great, and my color was good. It was really nice to hear it. 🙂

I received a text on my way home, and pulled over to read and reply. While I waited for an answer back, I turned off my car to conserve gas. Five minutes later, I tried to start the car again, to hear clicking. Fricking clicking. I am no gearhead, but my daughter Victoria is, so I texted her. She told me that she and her boyfriend would look at it when he was done with work. My oldest daughter, Mariah, came and picked me up and dropped me off at home, then she went to work. Victoria and her boyfriend worked on the car for three hours, and it still won’t start. Merry Christmas, right? They are going to work on it after work tomorrow; hopefully they’ll have better luck then.

In better news, I’m down 24.2 pounds since the day I was discharged from the hospital for a total of 58.4 pounds. That’s nothing to sneeze at, is it? I’m not going to lie; I cannot WAIT for purees come Thursday!

I’ll try to be better about posting more regularly, but for now, I need sleep! Going back to work really kicked in my ass in a way I didn’t expect.

Here’s hoping the rest of the week goes smoother than today!

Linda ❤

The Morning After

Its almost 12:30 on my first post op day. If I had talked to you 12 hours ago I never would have thought that I could or would feel this good. No joke.

Last night was rough. A lot of gas pain in surgery pain and I ended up sitting in a chair at 5:30 this morning because it felt better. I’ve been in the chair most of the time since then except for when I went down to radiology for my swallow test. No leaks!  Shortly after, I received a tray with jello, broth, lemonade and cranberry juice. I have to take in 4 oz of fluids an hour, and I’ve had 8 ounces so far. My goal to be discharged is 40 ounces. If I start at six tomorrow morning, I see no reason that I won’t his 40 by early evening!

I asked them to D/C my pain pump, because I was hardly using it. 4mls out of 30 in the syringe. Now I’m down to just one IV – a bag of ringers. The port in my right hand infiltrated last night, but no harm done.

The staff here has been amazing. Each and every one of them has gone out of their way to prove they are in the right professions. Special thanks to Michele, Jeff and Jamie. Last night was Jamie’s very first night here, and I teased him relentlessly. I told him he’d never forget me, to which he replied “you never forget your first” , and winked at me. He’s going to do fine!

Well I guess it’s time to get off he phone and back to the business at hand; breathing exercises, sipping, and walking!

Take care of yourselves,
Linda ❤

Today; It was a good day…

So, today was my last weigh in at Bariatrics.  Jackie, the PA, told me at my last appointment that this time, in all likelihood, we would be cleaning up the loose ends to submit to Highmark. Consequently, I didn’t sleep much last night, and I was totally unfocused at work this morning. But I got through it, and Mariah, Victoria and I went to Erie this afternoon.

We arrived at my appointment early, as usual. I have this weird fear of being late, so I’m ALWAYS early. We sat in the waiting room, watching patient after patient get called back. It was so frustrating, because my adrenaline was on overdrive! The time since this process started has absolutely FLOWN by! After about fifteen minutes of waiting, I was called back by the sweet weigh-in nurse to get on the scales.

I took off my shoes; I told her I wasn’t screwing around today. I stepped on the scales and she told me I’d lost 9 pounds since last time! 447.0. I’d met my pre-op goal, officially!! I was grinning; it was such a relief! I peed twice before my appointment to make sure I was going to be under 450, so to be at 447 was miraculous to me! After that, she checked my blood pressure; it was 124/74! Thanks, 39 lb weight loss (and lisinopril)!  I asked her for the initial measurements she’d taken at my first appointment, which she happily gave me, then she escorted us to Room 3 to wait for Jackie.

The girls and I chitchatted for a couple of minutes before we heard a knock on the door. It was Jackie and her laptop. I swear, she was excited as I was! She said that she thought we had everything we needed to submit to Highmark, but just needed to go over a couple of things, and then we’d look at potential surgery dates. SURGERY DATES! My mind was racing, and I was talking a thousand miles an hour. She went over all the testing I’d had and said everything looked great, that I’d worked very hard and there was no reason we couldn’t submit today. I asked quite a few questions, as I’m apt to do, but I could tell they were the kinds of questions everybody asks, because she had all the answers. When I told her I was concerned about what I’d read about total weight with VSG compared to Bypass, she allayed my fears, saying that the weight loss is comparable, and if I’m willing to do the work, which I’ve proved I am, there’s no reason to believe I won’t achieve my goal. That was such a relief!

Once I’m approved, I’ll have to go up to see Dr Ali once more to sign the consents. Apparently, it’s a big deal, because I’ve got online videos to watch BEFORE I go to sign them. She also said that I’ll have 12 days of liquid diet pre op. Four protein shakes a day, and a gallon of water. This is the “liver reduction diet” portion of our program. This shrinks my liver, making it easier to get under it to my stomach. We went through my med list; once I start the pre op diet, I will stop taking my Lasix, lisinopril, HCTZ and Klor-Con. That’s over half my meds! And I won’t restart them after surgery! Post op, I’ll take the Protonix twice a day, as well as an anti-nausea med (Zofran or Phenergan) and possibly a liquid med for my stomach similar to the Protonix, and a liquid pain medication. I asked her about my Ibuprofen, and she suggested I talk to Dr Ali at consent signing about it, as well as whether or not I will need to inject myself with Lovenox post op, like I did after my hysterectomy. Those injections are twice a day for 30 days, and are self administered. I’ve done it before, so it’s not a big deal at all.

Then she went to get the surgery book. She said that he will want to use the da Vinci robot for my surgery. I was so excited!! I’m such a Grey’s Anatomy nerd!! Apparently, Jackie could tell, as she told us she understands how exciting all this is, when Mariah told her that it’s more than that. [On Grey’s, when Webber was trying to keep Miranda from leaving, he bought her a da Vinci surgical system to entice her to stay]. We all laughed about that. She said that it should only take a couple of days for an answer back from Highmark (a couple of days?!?! SERIOUSLY??!?), so taking into account the 12 day preop diet, the first available surgery day is November 4th. NOVEMBER 4th!!! That’s less than three weeks away!!!

With that, she walked out to checkout, and I was given an order for labs (to be done once I hear I’m approved, but before consent day – CBC and Diff w/Platelets, UA, UC, APTT, Protime/INR, and a Basic Metabolic Panel – nothing like my FIRST labs), and the sheet with the instructions for viewing the educational video presentation about my surgery.  I thanked the staff, told them to have a great evening, and walked out of the office on a cloud.

So now we wait….

You’ll have to wait one more day…

I had an 800 word blog almost done, fell asleep typing, and lost the whole damned thing, so you’re going to have to wait one more freaking day.

Mental note – save the draft while you’re writing it.

In the meantime, here’s The Avett Brothers. Seeing them live is one of my post op goals (hopefully at Red Rocks-a girl can dream!).

The Avett Brothers – Head Full of Doubt/Road Full of Promise

My daughter Mariah got a tattoo of a lighthouse (for my Dad – I miss you!) with the lyrics from this song “Decide what to be and go be it” incorporated into it.  That line means a great deal to me now. I decided to be healthy, and am taking the steps I need to so I can be.

And with that, I am away.

Be kind, rewind.

Linda ❤