The weather today sucks, and I can feel it in my joints. As soon as it stops raining, my knee starts swelling up again. It’s the damnedest thing. I am in a lot of pain today. 😦
I decided I should take my HCTZ since I know the Lisinopril is working now. Consequently, I have to pee about every 68 seconds. That would be fine, if I weren’t gimping around my house like I am. Since the hysterectomy, I’ve developed stress incontinence. That’s why I haven’t been taking the Hydrochlorothiazide in the first place – it takes me so long to limp to the bathroom, I’m afraid I’ll pee my pants! So I decided that for now, I’ll take it on weekends when I don’t have to worry about peeing my pants at work, just home. Lord. Thankfully, my blood pressure was 150/82 at Dr. Ali’s during my workup, which is a far cry from the 210/102 it was in the ER a few weeks ago.
And I knew that surgery was not an inexpensive undertaking, but the more I think about all this, the more worried I get. (And that isn’t even taking into account the Out of Network deductible business.) This isn’t cheap. The protein shakes I have to take (one a day) are not inexpensive, nor are they easy to drink. Yesterday, it took over an hour to get it down, and I got nauseous about half an hour after I finished it . I don’t own a blender, so I’m going to have Tori pick up a cheap one at today when she picks up some groceries for me, so I can try and figure out a way to make protein shakes of my own that I can actually get down without gagging. I’m also going to have her pick up a food scale, which I need for the diet. Maybe I’ll hit the lottery one of these days and I won’t have to worry about any of the monetary issues.
That’s another thing. My 18 year old is living with me because with my knee being so bad, I can’t do the basement stairs to do laundry. Hell, I can’t even walk through the grocery store to get my own damned groceries!
Yes, I am fully aware that this whole blog has been whiny bitchfest. I don’t care. I know I’m feeling sorry for myself, and I know I can’t do it forever, but this has been my first down day in weeks, so I think I can day off from shiny, happy, perky.
Let’s hope tomorrow is a much, much better day.